I don't like to be transparent

It's just that sometimes I so am.

I might say or send something and suddenly be all, "why the fuck did you just do that, Stella?" and then I just sort of wait for a reaction.

These days I find myself having really drastic mood swings. Right now I'm feeling really fucking pissed off for absolutely no reason.

I also want to cry, but for no reason.

ANGER TEARSSSS~ but no, not really.

Music makes me feel slightly better.

I don't know how I feel about ATAR results coming out. I'm confident I did okay, but there's always a 'what if?' at the back of my mind. Maybe that's what's causing this.

I'm possessed by some sort of need or want for.. I don't know.

I'm just really confused.

What the fuck???????????????

There is nothing good.

I am also tired of having my inbox spammed with people replying to my mum's advertisement. Farrrr out, why did I not make a separate account for that?

I have gotten 172 emails from it in the space of 2 days, no joke.

EVEN AT 3AM OR SOMETHING WHILE I'M SLEEPING MY PHONE WILL SUDDENLY BE LIKE 'BUZZZZ' NEW EMAILLL. :| why are people even awake looking for jobs at 3 in the fucking morning?????

Rararararrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I am so frustrated I want to scream but then the whole street will hear me and think I'm dying or something.